Possibly. If it's a sekrit, it's not like anyone could just tell you. And the awkward silences following your proclamation of Jun-fanship are not because they don't think that Matsujun is suited to you, it's actually just because no one is supposed to admit to being a Matsujun fan, ever. Especially in public, or in response to a direct question.

I didn't say it makes sense. The 'whys' of things are never clear.